Cheers to 2024! How was your December? Mine, to be honest, was pretty brutal. And based on my conversations and check ins with friends, family and clients, I was not alone in that boat. Just so you know, December collectively was a doozy energetically: winter solstice energy, solar flares, mercury went retrograde (it's finally direct on Jan 1st but will still be in shadow), a full moon in CANCER (hello all the feelings!!!), the planetary alignments were NUTS...  

In my personal journey there were incredible highs in some areas of my life and heart shattering lows in others, with a lot of confusion and the feeling of having no solid ground beneath my feet everywhere else... all at the same time. The image of how I was feeling that stuck with me throughout most of the month was one of a china teapot that had been dropped and shattered in many pieces on the floor and all I could do was stand there and stare at the pieces wondering what to do. Do I try and glue it back together? Do I find a way to magically become a new teapot and hope someone else stumbles across the broken pieces and finds some use for it? Do I sweep it up, chuck it, scratch the entire idea of a china teapot and upgrade to an electric kettle? During a healing session with my mentor, she brought through a beautiful message from my guides. She said, "Let yourself break. Give yourself permission to not always have to hold it together." And so I did. I let myself sit in the ick and really feel it.

The Universe always knows what it's doing... but sometimes we as humans can have a difficult time figuring out what in the world the gift is or the lesson is or the WHY something happened the way that it did. 

I also wondered why the clear vision of one future suddenly seem hazy, and one that hadn't even truly been considered was suddenly surfacing?  New paths unfolding in ways I didn't see coming?  (I was also forced to get a new prescription for my glasses this month and tend to my eye health to help clear up my vision... The Universe has quite the sense of humor) I was reminded over and over again that we are constantly evolving beings and the Universe always has bigger and better plans for our life story, in whatever way it may lead and for however long. The key is to trust.

Trust. Some days that's easier to do than others. I probably had a solid three weeks this month filled with multiple breakdowns of old thinking patterns, belief systems, fears standing front and center screaming in my face, daring me to confront them (which of course I did), acceptance of the lack of control I have over anybody else's healing journey but my own (no matter how much I wished otherwise), and many tear filled nights comforting my inner child. The younger part of me who is still panicking/healing from past relationship wounds, and working through the intense fear that surfaces when I feel in every part of my body that a massive change in my story is about to unfold. (How that will happen is still unclear) I'm human too 😬 and just as much on this journey as you are. Activations left and right. (I don't care for the word 'trigger'). If you have been feeling any of this too, please know that you are not alone. Ah life.

But as Christopher Witecki of Sirius Joy says, "You can't build your new castle until your old building has been demolished and cleared." (or something like that). So... let the walls crumble, leave the old story that is no longer serving you behind and continue to grow into your new story. Work through your shadows. You deserve it. It's time to put YOU and your own journey ahead of everybody else. Work through your pain. Work through your wounds. You're worth it. And continue creating moment to moment to moment. This moment is truly all we really have. Please don't try and rush the process. The process is what this journey is all about. The gifts will appear in the most magical of ways. 🌹

Thank you for being on this journey with me throughout the years. I'm sending you and your loved ones so much love. Celebrate your wins, the big and the small, and love on your losses... the big and the small. ❤️  Happy New Year my friend.

See you in February ✨   

All My Love,

Vanessa Hernandez

Lava to Stone